soulsearching.

for the next week, i'm practicing buddhism. yeah, practicing a new religion.
well, not really practicing yet exploring.

i'm checking two books out of the library which will serve as my bibles and guidebooks for the few weeks.

1. Don's Sweat The Small Stuff...and it's all small stuff by Dr. Richard Carlson "simple ways to keep the little things from taking over your life......"
2. Meditation-A Beginners Guide by Charlotte Parnell

so yeah, i'm pretty excited. and i'm abadoning facebook/myspace during my quest so i'll have a better focus on myself and not who's doing what, where, and why.

i think my whole idea of doing this comes from the fact that over the past week so much has been bothering me that it's time to just relax, reflect, and move on.

There's 100 chapters in my don't sweat the small stuff book so everyday when i read a chapter, i'll summarize what i've learned from it here. so here i go.....

illness.

i'mfeelingalittleA LOTundertheweather.
blah...school has been pretty dull today.
just got outta AP English and didn't understand anything. All i remember is something about Plato and an allegory he wrote about society and something about a cave. yeah.

next i have AP french, and i didn't do my homework b/c i felt like i was dying last night. but i'm about to go to extra help period so she can assist me in completing what i didn't understand.

i was gonna go bowling tonite, but i'll spend the evening studying for my anatomy chapter test which is on monday. yay anatomy. but right now, my anatomy is really failing me. my cardoivascular system to be exact.

i'm listening to Party Life by Jay-Z right now, and its kinda puttin me to sleep.........ZzzzZZzzz.
i'm out.

bittersweet; it's gonna be the death of me.

yesterday was pretty.....bittersweet, as you probably can tell from the title. so i started my morning off pretty shitty. i woke up late because i went to bed late. then i couldn't find my planner. ask any boarding school student, your planner is your life. so i felt pretty lost without it. so i had to continue my morning not knowing what classes i had today or what meetings i was potentially missing. after my first period class, which was AP biology, i had senior seminar which consisted of "typical-college-prep" and what not to do in college stuff. blahhblahhblahhh. the rest of my classes went pretty normal up until volleyball practice. i was so sore b/c we had a game before and then yesterday we were told we have another game again today. yay os volleyball. its so tiring tho. my lunch time was dedicated to a meeting with the ECOteam, which is our school's go-green committee. I'm the only student on the committee so i'm the one that has to give all of the imput from a student's perspective so it was pretty exhausting for me.

after sports i spent a good hour on the phone with my boyfriend, catching up on the things i'm missing at home. i didn't get into the shower until 6, and then i remembered that the senior dinner was tonight. shit. so then i hastily got dressed, slapped on some make-up and a bright smile and was off. after dinner the senior class went to the head's house for dessert. at first i grabbed a slice of the chocolate cake but then my pickiness kicked in because it wasn't as moist as i wanted it to be so i opted for the key lime pie which was delicious. then we began to say one weird fact about ourselves that we never told anyone....and i've found out some pretty interesting things about my classmates. then everything got all sad and emotional. besides all the work and commitments i have to attend to, it still hasn't sank in that i'm a senior. and we began to reminisce on all the memories we had of one another and i began to realize this will no longer be my "home" in a few months. but it'll be a bittersweet goodbye because then comes college, and then the real life i've been preparing for for so long. and then things got better because when i got back to my room and started my french homework, my planner fell out of my binder. it was a sign that things were gonna be okay ;-)

i think my new nickname is gonna be squirrel.

lol :)

i am currently...

wasting paper, printing sparknotes on the three summer reading books i DID NOT even attempt to read. sorry ms. bledsoe. and sorry to the trees. b/c i swear i printed 100 pages of shit i dont even understand. all this for my attempt to get an A. wow, whatthefck was i thinking when i signed up for AP English?! life.

smasherrific. pretty lame. but i like it.

backlikeneverbefore.

okay so i know i havent updated in like foreverrrr....i've been getting all types of facebook messages and shit about it. but the reason for my non-updating is blogging is time consuming. i love it with all my heart, yes i do, but i just haven't had time for interesting posts. school's back in session, i signed up for 8 clubs today, and its senior yearrrrr.fuck yeak. so you know that means that i'm gonna be on my toes about everything and anything. but life's good great.idk. i mean, i'm having theee hardest time with choosing colleges. i wanna stay in-state but then again; i don't. i mean, more than anything i'm worrying about being in debt for the rest of my life from student loans than anything else. life's what you make it like hannah montana says so no matter where i go, i'll learn something. but i have come up with my majors. ready, here it is:I WOULD LIKE TO DOUBLE MAJOR IN BIOLOGY AND FRENCH W/ A MINOR IN COMMUNICATIONS. it sounds official, yet almost impossible probably. j'aime la langue francais avec seul mon coeur mais ne puis jamais balancer biologie et la. and communictions.......everyone that knows me knows i'm out there in the best way possible {no pun intended} so you know you'd love to see me on the news or on CSPAN or something of that sort. oh yeah, and this week volleyball started and i'm on JV woot woot. idgaf...i'm still the shit. our first game is tomorrow and i get to wear my jersey {#8} and sexy black spandex but yeah, it'll pop.
for the past weekend i've been tryna videochat with my boyfriend (who i love oh-so-dearly) but the shit seems to never work. and shoutout to AJ for videochatting with me and the OS girls the other day. that's why you're my bff. i have a skype now and like everything else my screenname is prettyashley5555 so add me to your buddy lists ppl. okay, now its time to go finish failing my british literature class homework...and i'll definately continue to update more often b/c this post re-ignited my love for blogging. i'm such a dork. blow me.

but yeah, once again. i'm smash.